going home

Date: Saturday, April 29, 2006
Time: 3:20:00 PM

spent few hours doing my DRV turorial...and finally it was cleared. i'm feeling err....what u call that? sense of achievement? haha.
jus realised that it's not that hard afterall, i'm glad that the school has chosen statistics as the option topic instead of mechanics. think i should be able to do better in this. start to worry for my physics, i'm like really lost in the recent topics. esp during tutorial yesterday, i cldnt really understand what mr oh was talking fully. 50% maybe? sigh. nowadays all of us are playing the 'catching up game'. like what our VP mentioned during assembly, everybody needs to go through the catching up process before we can excel. really hope that it's true.

was being so 'piggy' yesterday. slept straight after dinner at around 8 plus all the way to 12 mid-night.
cannt blame me actually, i was really tired. was not having enuf slp the nite before, and yesterday was also a super long day. ended school at around 4, then still gotta go for the dialogue session with civil servant in the hall till 6 plus. sigh.
so, after sleeping for about 4 hours, i woke up in the middle of the night and did my work. i checked the clock before i slpt and it showed 4.05 am. lolz. not that i dont treasure my sleeping time, jus that sometimes the workload is so heavy, and we jus do not have enuf time to complete them if we were to make sure ourselves have enuf sleep. sad sia.

was reading meai's blog and made me feel really envious. how i hope that i have finished my exams, and can relax and have fun like how she does.
cant wait for my 'a' levels to be over. i wanna sing, dance and shout! hur hur.
so now it's my time to chiong. people, pls constantly encourage me so that i can stay motivated throughout, k?

alrights..it's a raining saturday evening... the dark sky and the weather make me feel really depressed. i luv sunny day! hehe. anyway, not that it matters cuz i'll be staying in the hostel to rush out hw anyway...

sianz...

pic taken in nydc that day. nice?

Date: Thursday, April 27, 2006
Time: 12:01:00 PM

finally i'm updating.
nothing worth to be blogged about these days. school, homework, tests...the same old mundane life that everyone is leading.
but but but, something fun took place yesterday!!!
i managed to go for the class outing, or rather, clique outing yesterday!! actually the class has had quite a lot of outings this year but i was oways the p.s kia. not really actually, jus that everytime jus before the outing i wld have something more important on and therefore not able to attend. anyway, yesterday was fun!!! =) we went N.Y.D.C at holland v to have lunch. it was raining and by the time we reached the place we were all drenched. so paiseh. the food was simply fantastic, though a bit ex...
and the photo taking session was fun, esp with the 'bay hung-like' creature. haha.

so there's no school for all jjcians today. today is the nomination day for the upcoming G.E and our school is chosen as the venue for it. dunno whether shld feel happy about it. we miss one day of lessons, which means, there will be lotsa remedials and extra lessons in store for us. honestly i dun really like the feeling of having to stay back till 5 or 6 pm while we are supposed to end school at 3. it's tiring and by the time we reach home, it will be very late. not to forget we still have tonnes of work to complete at night.
sometimes i'm so tired that i jus sleep. though mentally i can afford it, the physical tiredness is hard to bear with.

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was feeling bored and called the number the other day. surprisingly, a girl picked up the call. driven by curiosity, i used the other no to call again. i asked pk to help me ask whether she's sarah and the person admitted. it was obvious that she was being an imposter. definitely she's not sarah.

i dunno whther the whole thing is jus a prank, but what i wanna know is where sarah is now. is she really dead like what the person said? or she's still very much alive and leading a normal life, and the person is jus telling a lie?
i wonder why there is such bo liao people on earth. is it really that fun to prank around, leaving people baffled and confused? i jus dun understand. but i believe that the truth will unveil itself one day. wait till i get the 2005 scgs school magazine.
hah. u think it's very funny to fool around? to me it's mere despicable.

alrites. that's all.
cheerios.

Date: Saturday, April 15, 2006
Time: 1:24:00 PM

i'm still dissatisfied. i only use(d) the phone for less than 1 year. and now i will have to waste another 30 bucks to apply for a new sim card and to use an old phone. i'm dissatisfied!!!!
i was stuffing the phone into my pocket to avoid it being stolen. but the goddamn thief was like really experienced. he was squeezing to my direction when boarding the bus, leaving me with no space or time to check my pocket.
and by the time i boarded the bus and managed to find a seat, my phone was already gone.
after that i saw that goddamn theif alighted the bus, with a highly suspicious expression on his face.
i was about to get down to ask him. but i was scared that he would take out a knife or something. it's like, i knew who the thief was but i couldnt so anything. u wun know what will happen.
sighh. think next time i must be extra careful. i wun let it happen again.
mom said news on incidents like this appear almost everyday on newspapers.
dunno how the police do their job. there isnt any law and order at all.

and inside my heart i'm cursing the thief, he will definitely die a horrible death in the future. hah. i'm so mean but i cant help it. i jus despise people like that.
N6100 is not even worth 500 ringgit nowadays but he still wanted to steal it. so despicable.
i'm so xin tong la...

i shall not talk about unhappy stuffs anymore.
hey, i got a band 2 for pw!!! actually i thought i wldnt have scored well becuz of OP. i was so worried before that.
luckily overall it was still not too bad.
and all my group members managed to achieve a band 2!~ hurrey~ we rock man!

and all the tests last week were terribly done. chem was the worst. i dun even dare to imagine what kind of result i will get. but somehow i dun feel sad cuz i have already tried my best.
and all the scoldings from teachers also made me feel sad and dull. think all my fellow classmates feel the same too.
anyway, we shant let it happen again. we will strive hard and show the teachers that we can do it okay?

cheerios.

Date: Friday, April 14, 2006
Time: 10:12:00 PM

damn it damn it damn it!
I LOST MY PHONE!!!
i'm so pissed!
this is not the 1st time this kinda thing happened on me.
last year was my wallet, and now is my phone.
and all the numbers, pics, smses are gone!!!
so sui.
i really dun like jb. in fact i have never liked this place. when dad decided to move here three years ago i was so reluctant to do all the packing and shifting.
really miss the peace in kampar.

life without a phone is not considered a life.
:'-(

Date: Tuesday, April 11, 2006
Time: 4:17:00 PM

today is a depressing day. got back progress report. feel sad not becuz i did badly or anything. in fact i have improved. but the problem is that for mathematics, they only counted the 1st test and coincidential enough, that was the one that i didnt do well.
so my overall grade for maths now is D, which it should be an A.
well. it's frustrating but somehow i think it has its purpose to serve. to remind me not to feel complacent eventhough i have done well for my last two tests.
so yup. was feeling really angry jus not but now i'm okay. i will make sure that i make a drastic change to my grades in mid year.
as for chem, i still have to work hard. to strive hard in fact.
hopefully wun receive warning or anything from MOE. i really hate that.

really stressed these days. how can i not be stressed having a sister who had gotten straight A's for all her four subjects and is now holding a scholarship in uni?
parents have never said that they want me to do as well as how sis did.
but somehow the stress is there. sometimes even when ur frens are doing slightly better u will feel stressed too. in this case, feeling stressed is something inevitable.
stress is all upon me, over me, and within me. i really hate that kind of feeling. not being able to eat well and sleep well. i'm like eating less and less during my meals. and i'm like sleeping so little nowadays.
and there seems to be not much time left. and i have so much things to cover before the critical exams. i'm not even sure whether i understand all the j1 topics well.

stressed...stressed...stressed...everything seems to be so dull and lifeless.
is it gonna be like this for the rest of my jc life?
argh. sucks.

Date: Sunday, April 9, 2006
Time: 5:43:00 PM

it feels good to be able to finsih what u have planned to finish. that's the reason why i'm slacking like nobody's business now. =)
but still, i have plenty of tests to study for. and the best part is that i will be having my napfa on tuesday. argh. S.T.R.E.S.S.E.D. dunno how to prepare for it.
anyway, will try my best. jia you kfc and grace too!!! dun have to worry for xh cuz she can surely pass one. haha.

alrights.
-yay- there's maths lecture tmr!!! =)
haha. i'm a stalker! bleah.

Date: Friday, April 7, 2006
Time: 7:47:00 PM

the past week had been really hectic for me. lotsa work to do, there are like 5 tests coming next week and i have been mugging almost everyday, and rushing out homework every latenight. can't blame anyone actually, blame myself for slacking so much last week and the work is like piling up now.
life is like that, when u gain something, u will lose something.

talking about mugging. ya. i dun deny it when people say that i'm a mugger. mugger literally means people who mug. i mean, who on earth having a sane mind doesnt mug to get good grades? even the coolest person on earth needs to mug so that he/she will have some smell of intelligence.
so i dun understand why so often people like to relate 'mugger' to 'nerd'.
there are differences ok?
nerds are really those people who find life in studying. but luckily they still look normal.
but geeks are different. they are so 'into' it that they appear to be so different from the rest of the people on earth. they look like they are from a different planet.
not to disparage anyone here, but people who fall into the last category really lead a sad life.
jus some funny thoughts huh. =)

so yup. it dint take me long to realise that in order to get good grades in a jc, we really need to mug hard. at least for people like me, who isnt very smart in anyway. but hey, i can be if i want to okay? =P
so yup, in this very last year of my jc life, i will jus put in my all to chiong for 'A's.
this is the path that i have chosen so i will make sure that i walk till the end. there may be stones and boulders along the way but i believe that somehow there will be a way out. huh, what an analogy.

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some unhappy things happened. and this is the 1st time i find difficulty in expressing the kind of feeling that i am having now.
i'm a person of words. A LOT in fact. people who know me well know that i like to talk, and i like to express my thoughts in words. but now i think i should make a change to it. i should jus keep everything to myself.
i will still talk, but only to certain people. those who really know me well.
it's disappointing that fren whom i have known for so long actually wronged me for bringing her down. i wun mind if it's some hi-bye fren, but in this case, she's a rather close fren of mine.

i hate it when people say that i have done something that i have never even thought of doing. no matter how big or small the thing is. i'm petty, in fact very petty. but i have my principle and pride.
anyone can understand my feeling?
sigh, nvm.
i will jus keep it to myself.
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and yes!!! have u ever seen a guy who is cute, shuai and cool at the same time???
i have found one! and he's my new eye candy now. bleah.
i love phys, chem and maths lectures.